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First of all , i know my blog seem very very dead, so humorous lol .
so yes finally exams had over , it was like finally! stresssss freeeeee. had been studied very hard all day long and even woke up during the midnight to let everything goes into my brain & i hope in the end the results in my reportbook wont disappoint me. nowadays many ppls had fall sick easily due to the haze, past few days i was sick&not feelingwell too but thanks to bibi for staying by my side & takecare of me the whole week(: . next whole week which is tomorrow will be having elective modue so i will be learning about cutting hair n so on, who dare to let me cut aft i learn& i will cut for u hahahahaha so stupid. weeeee ~ maybe should secretly cut my baby albertwong's hair while he is sleeping :x HAHAHAHAAHHA just kidding ok dun kill me.i no so bad. so bored now , i want shopping . Ahmando just called me telling me how bless she was cos of the kpop night her idol wave at her -.-'' nvm this is her crazy pattern . waiting for my pizza to come back (:

just receive end of year examination timetable & it would start at end of this month! Okay dat was really fast, im so so so afraid about it can. report book was also release out on yesterday, very quickly from a sot plug mood turn moodless when i got back my reportbook , damn disappointed with the other subjects, i didnt do really well, the marks were totally bullshit but im so elated dat my mathematic have improve by twentysix marks & got a gradeB and i hope i will score like that too for my eoy. especially combine science , that chemistry and combine humanities , dont know who the hell on earth create this two subject or exams , sucks! before i end my complain, i want to say...fuck you chem and humanities ! promise myself to study everyday from now on , mugging for eoy. so its september holiday now , probably i wan to spend some time in the library or at home to study, lets be sampat and kiasu abit hahahahahhaa.
okay last week i have heard a news dat if the normal acdemic students do well for their n-level, they could get into poly straight by not going to secondary five or taking o-level , but instead of three years in the poly , its four years . then i was like so happy man ... okay then aft a few days it clearly mention that it will start at two zero one three , what the hell ==
hey , look .... i wish time could be control, feel that its still starting of the year but, its going to be october soon and we will be having our holidays , fast ? >: tueday have history remedial ==
now very hungry , dont wan type already . off to read another storybook borrowed from janicechua.





rmb that we once play a lame game? who spot who first in the sch first when we haven knew each other and i won .....
rmb i saw at the library? it was on a saturday at the entrance, before dat i kept mentioned dat my heart suddenly pump very fast&randomly bomb dat maybe u will appear infront of me soon, they said i think too much....who knows the moment i turn&i saw u , whole face stun. i thought that was fate but now i dont think so.u looked at me n i looked at u, eyes of an stranger. if we happen to meet on the street nxt time, i hope we will say hi or smile .
i giv up love you , books dat i hav written ur name inside were all cancel,bluetooth name was change, hp wall paper changed n deleted, keep all the things inside my drawer safelyand had tear out the paper on my sch desk tat had ur name on it , heartshape is not found anymore infront of ur name. im trying hard.

你所说和做的 全部都令我很失望 .
也许你觉得你所跟我说的是善意的谎言

say you love me

no idea what to blog about but will just blog alittle. test and test were going on , its so emphasised. nowadays the weather seriously sucks very much , sometimes cold sometimes torrid , which made people fall sick easily. especially you , fit than me still keep fall sick, drink more water ok . n must eat , dont always play bball . wo jue de ni hen cute. lol o: i have no idea whye i will remember every wednesday u will sure be very tired cos u will have tuition.
seriously chemistry is became harder & harder & i dont understand >: , i still didnt find anyone good at it to teach me, so worried. any kind soul wanna to teach me maths or chem pls give me a text.look , its august already . well , time really flies, sucks because when each day pass u going to graduate soon >:
watched movie few days ago , love in disguise, thumb up. a movie that made me tear out out of a sudden although its a happy ending , i recalled about something. those moment with you were really very beautiful. scientific prove that when the firstdrop of tears drop from the lefteye its hurt and if its from the right its happiness . i wonder if this is true , cos i always drop from the left. >: whatever . just now i eat icecream (: it had been so long since i eat (: . lawls ! off to do my d&t and read storybook .


你答应我的我都记得,但是你却忘了你的承诺. 我每天想着你已劲变成了习惯
hello, threemoredays will be the third month without you & im still the same. somehowi hate the num19. dont see me nowadays see you then treat u like transparent or what like that , when i look at u at just a glance i feel like watching u like a movie forever , hoping that the time will stop . face no expresstion but heart pumping fast like hell , feel so excited out of a sudden , gone insane when saw u. each day and each day the distance between us is drifting away , i already tried my best but it seem like u didnt give me the chance , free for everyone but not free for me. now i only can stood there and do nothing.dont say out there still got many trees , i decide to stay single currently til i feel like . im so sick of it , sorry. 我的心以经j受了很都伤 可不可以不要再伤了？ 你说的我都懂 可是我却不能够这样的放手 你明不明白？ wo bu hen ni ke shi wo hai xi huan ni, zai ye zuo bu liao qing ren ke shi wo xi wang wo men shi yong yuan de peng you :D

i feel like im some kind of crazy fellow talking to myself here. bullshit

bored like hell now so ... doing some stupid quiz .
&&&&& i will post my story soon , very soon , i think. do come back n read

are u single?: Yes
are u happy?: Sometimes.
are u bored?: very!
are u fair?: dont know
are u indian?: erxin dabian==
are u stupid?: yohoho! im smart xD
are u honest?: see situation
are u nice?: im friendly (:
are u asian?: yepppp

about ur love:
been in love?: yes
believe love in first sight? : dunno
currently have a crush?: duno
hurt emotionally before?: see my face -> )':
broke someone's heart?: yes
like someone but keep in ur heart?: yes
are u afraid of commitment?: yes
last person u kiessed?: _ _ _ _
last person u hugged?: _ _ _ _
last person u said ILY?: _ _ _ _

ten facts:
full name: MakYuJie
nickname: none.
birthplace: sg
hair colour: brown brown black black
hairstyle: straight
eye colour : black
date of birth: 10march1995
mood: soso
favourite colour: dark colour
one place u would like to visit: Japan

this or that?:
love or lust ? : love
cats or dogs ?:hate cats. erxin dabian
best friend or regular friends?: bestfren
creamy or crunchy?: crunchy
pen or pencil?: pennnn
wild night out or romantic in?:both
money or happiness?: money cant buy happiness
night or day?: night
IM or phone?: phoneeee

have u ever?:
been caught sneaking out?: ?????
seen a polar bear?: big big white white fat fat
do smtg u regret?: yes
jumping?: ???????
eat an entire jaw breaker?: ??????
been caught naked? : laugh out loud . ==
wanted boyfriend back?:him lor
cried because lost a person forever?: ):
wanted to disappear?: if i can

preference in love:
smile or eyes? : both
light or dark hair? : depends which suit
hug or kiss?: both also want
intelligence or attraction?: intelligence
violent or pathetic?: hate violent guys plssss
older or younger?: older
outgoing or quiet?: outgoing
sweet or bad?: sweet obviously

have you:
performed in a large crowed?: yes
talk on the phone longer than one hr?: yes
a rock concert?: nah
cheerleading team?: no
sports team?: i think so
drama play or production?: no
own rich cars?: i wished

last:
last call u made?: ah man do
hugged?: _ _ _ _
hang out?: cwp
work?: lazy count
talked to?: my papa
movie?: desplicable me ( its so fluffy! im gonna die)
last person or thing u miss?: a_ _ _& my bolster

done , off to sleep , byeeeeeeeee.

its another sunny banana day, what a nice weather to sleep with my blanket later on.
so hows life,i realise that i had spend most of the time during the past few weeks in the library after school to complete my assignment or doing some revision.i hate combine humanities!& it seem like i have some difficulties at chemistry and some topic of maths! anyone who is good at it want to volunteer and teach me?how i wish Aycy wil teach me like last time cos i do understand. i used to be a person who love to take hours of nap in the afternoon,but now im no longer that lazy kind of person. almost everyday now in the noon im studying. see the difference , im a goodgirl now yeah xD ,haha. recently i had been thinking alot and i had even thinking of getting a job too, earn money to buy some random thing that i want , the rest save it in bank next time grow up buy a car for myself muahaha! ( gone insane,think til too far). but u all see , this age , its hard to find it right. this world is all about education and money. oh , almost forgot about the worldcup! spain won == holland didnt win. zzz
nowadays im reading a book , borrowed from janice. titled;to forget you. its so sad that makes me cry , first time cry while reading a book. ( sound familiar to my story) probably when im done reading that book , my mind will wakeup.and i want to watch despicable me! its so cute.it had been so long , so long, since i watch movie. the last time i watched was with you. i remembered last time will watch atlease one movie every month but now it seem like now only the despicable me movie caught my eyes. that yellow little thingy look so cute like a potato,hope i will watch it soon. yesterday went to swimming with xm, that cute friend of mine and it was fun! (: my skin somehow get darker just alittlebit. tues will be the o-level listening compre for the sec4 and5, gdluck.
off to continue reading my book while wating for my kfc to comeback,muahaha!
love ? enjoy life first n talk abt it next time.


wo men hai shi pengyou :D tml will be the secondmonth without u.when im with you, the testimonial created in my mind was i believe u are not the same like others , we will last&im wont hurt u,in my life. but still , our relationship didnt blossoms at all. day by day my love grow deeply and somehow became a obsession. u might think i mention that i will wait for you , was the joke of the day or maybe im talking cock or u think that was jus plain silliness . one answer ,i mean it.
remembered on 19may i couldnt sleep&on 20may i went school with both my eyes red,searching for u n hope u would tell me its just a joke on the nineteen.i cant really see u clearly as infront of my eyes was my own tears , im really veryvery tired.when we were still tgt, i will look around sch, mind was wondering where is my baby? nor~ at there hehe. when we were over, i looked at u n wondered, when this guy will come back to me?but now, u still mean alot to me but im ur someone who used-to-be mean alot to u.i cant bear to leave this relationship n let it writhe away just like that. as u can see im trying very hard to letgo but things are not easy as u think.wish u will fall out from my heart now and just let all those memories stop there. loveyou de now i very xinku. it just a matter of time.now, i didnt wan to wait anymore cos u know i know, although a chance was given yet that chance dont really exist.but listen carefully, it doesnt mean my feelings for u gone or wadever so. when u need someone i will always be there for you, 24/7.
how i wish, whenever u are bored or so , u would want me to be ur entertainer.
i know my effort for calling u back, was not enough, but i really have no idea what can i do.
our story mirror a love song that i once heard , a novel that u once read and lastly,a movie we once watched.before i end my typing here,i just want to say.....if u happen to read this,baby, i love you,like i loveyou previously.
and now , my first drop of tears drop from my lefteyes.
我舍不得

time really pass very fast , another brand new month , july . holiday had end and school had reopen, i couldnt get to wakeup late anymore. new time table had also release too ,
gosh ... somehow im so dislike about it , such a long timing would be spend in school,nevermind go home also so boring and the cca day is also somehow so lame, i think i would rather to have lessons. okays so sometimes nowadays after school i will go to the library to study too, im such a good girl , hehehe . oh when i got back to school the thing i heard is my face become more chubby,very nice to pinch==.today went to jurong swimming complex to swim with the two girls and it was fun and very funny(: . aft that go to eat macham fly to heaven cos very hungry.
hearing news n news that those ppl patch n patch, but whye i dun hav.

everytime i spot you secretly and i kept watch you like a movie when u didnt realise, but sometimes somehow you dont even care to look at me at just a glance. the way i act , act until as if i dont care , act til as if i already forget about everything, act til as if im strong enough when i still care and remember everything and not strong at all . its not fun acting at all. see until u , inside very happy but outside act didnt see u or whatever . my hp wallpaper had not even change for so long , u will not even know what was it. my table in school wrap til nicenice with black colour paper but dont know whye it somehow look destroy with tear, instead of throwing away i fix it cos it has ur name on it , all is about you . scroll up hp to see contacts , first name was u , cos there was a heartshape infront , open wallet there were still got things remind me of you. bluetooth name also about you . whye is everything about u ? you walked away with everything stays the same and for me to clear it myself . its not like a ballon tie on my hand , said want to let it go then can already. im a crazy fellow , when someone told me accidentally scratch til ur hand got blood come out while playing bball, which idk is true anot , i became so rash n give a black face . everytime saw mos burger or famousamos cookie shop then i will surely said , this is my last time de shop , im the ex-ladyboss .sometimes think of the past will still tears . u forgot abt those moment le ma ?everytime i said u happy jiu hao le , now u happyhappy out thr while me at thr lieing to myself, everything still stays the same. i wan to talk to u but im afraid u dun wan to talk me so i didnt wan to disturd. if my hp screen appear ur name again , i will fly . i wont express out my feeling for u already , im so tired of it . & i dun think u will come here n read all this stupid thing .
on march, i said that i will faithful to u, now that sentence still exist.
还要多久你才能够回到我的身边?还是永远都不会回来了?

okay the time had already pass twelve , so right now consider as saturday. i lye on the bed and it seem like i could not get to my lala land and sleep although im very tired,so i turned on my computer to blog since i have no idea what to do at this hour,decide to kill my boredom here.
well , blink of an eyes the holidays is gonna to end soon in about a week , i duno if i should feel happy or not looking forward to it , of course both have the different reason. i miss that someone so much,so much. so,i just spend my holiday randomly,nothing special. thurs went to malaysia shopping. then yesterday went to jurong swimming complex to swim , actually had planed to go swim on this tuesday from dont know how many thousands ago but im so sway on that day so decide to go on friday. so go there swim with the two girls while another two crazy go there eat kfc dont want swim , sampat . so fun there ! at there play water& im so afraid of the slide -.-
then aft that headed back to cwp to eat pastamania , my fav bake rice, went home .
had been catching one drama , two more ep and im done with that show . so touching and sad can ,lameshit, made me cry so much infront of the com. okay, enough time for relaxing,gonna start doing some revision starting by tml. im so hungry now , suddenly want to eat ice kachang.
in a week there are seven days , i can atlease dream of you atlease four times in a week , gosh am i crazy or what . crazy ass . im a women with normal face expression but i have a broken heart & its bleeding .i really duno what else can i do,i miss you so much.i only can imagine u are always with me.

come back to me , i want you . will you?
我想以后都能够在一起

its 12 plus midnight now

i duno why im typing this, but im just feel so down now.
suddenly i recall alot of things . i wonder if u see this .

i was once the girl you loved the most , the one you miss always , the only one who you wanted to protect n cherished , ur baby , girlfriend , wife and everything . the one who you hug and kiss.
the one who you whispered i love you to .the one who you sent me birthday message straight at twelve.the one you folded hearts for , the one who hold me tight during the rain .the one who sit couples seat with u in the theatre watched movie. the one who always like to tickle you .the one that made u angry when i anyhow said i wan to drink beer which i duno how .the one who u worried about and trusted the most , the one who you message the most,the one who can only made u sad and laugh. the one who is only in your eyes and wanted to superglued with . the one who is yours and solely yours. the one who u afraid to lose ...... now is who lose who D:

why all happy moment have to come to an end ???????
eightapril is still exist in my life . do u ????????
080410;18.40pm .
you are the best thing i had ever crossed in my life , you're always a goodguy to me.boy,can i dun let u go anot
maybe without me in ur life , u would be happier .......................................
but now my life without you is so ............................lost and empty .
im lost . all i wan is i want u to do well and get goodgood results in ur o level .

after that day , i shed those tears for you , do u shed for me ???????????????????????
i read thousands of ur messages over and over again , feeling happy and hurt at the same time.
wondering how are u everyday , now in ur days will u still recall of me ?
i knew ur love for me was not a lie , this i can comfirm. i knew you have ur reason .
but i gave you my heart is to keep and not for you to break it . ): everything gone in a flash):
it had been so many days , i was always holding on to my phone , but still , ur name didnt appear on the screen at all ........ where are you ??? could all the 'once' happen again .
你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我 多一次...........

i stare at my phone everyday,hoping i will get an unexpected text from u .

okay , its holiday already , i hope it wont be a boring one . came back from bintan few days ago , well i should just talk alittle about the trip there , went to climb the mountain for so many hours to reach the peak , man...it was really tiring and slippery! went back to hotel then suddenly blackout -.- it was really funny at that moment , i was screaming all the way . after one min the light came back . went to visit landfill , water village , orphanage , shopping . overall , we were very fortunate to live in singapore compared to them!so we must cherish what we have now,dont take things for granted . just a short elaborate , lazy to elaborate more . i only enjoy the aircon in the hotel room,watching tv , chating and enjoying tibits on the queen size bed with them . laughs , the bed very nice to roll and jump . the first thing when i reached home is become a pig , this is my pattern . bleah bleah .
had get back our reoport book , get into class position top10 but im really damn disappointed with my results , im really not satisfied with it , so lan , sigh . i swear i would definitely spend some of the days on this june holiday to study , i swear. before its too late .
this month had happened alot of things , sigh , dont wanna to talk about it , it wasnt really a good one . sometimes we have to accept the truth that we dont want to accept . watching some of the couples break and patch , nothing is impossible for me and you too right . memories just like that flash back through my mind everyday , what can i do , its killing me inside .

i am going to wait for this man .